Archive for November 7th, 2009

Date: Sat, 07 Nov 2009 06:56:28
To: am-global@earthlink.net
Subject: The Worst Job Ever
From: CJ Phillips


“(Tumi) esechile mor bakul-bita’ne na’ baliya’ ka’r ghare…” (PS 4320)


Baba, that time the place was surrounded by innumerable bakul flowers
which were blooming and You graced me by coming to my cottage during
that verdant spring season. With Your divine grace, You brought
devotional horripilation (goose bumps) throughout my entire existence
and You also vibrated the very pulsation of my blood. Baba, by having
You in such an intimate and close way, my life has become meaningful. It
is Your grace.

Baba, soon after that golden dawn, Your liila moved into a different
phase. Because then You went away leaving me crying all alone. O’ my
dearmost where did You go that time.

B aba, since then I have spent countless days and nights waiting–
sitting by my window threading heaps of flower garlands for You. But
that was all in vain because You did not come. It is painful that now I
no longer see that attractive & charming smile because You are keeping
Yourself distant. Now I no longer see that radiant smile which I used to
see on Your lips when You were with me. Baba in longing for You, ages
have passed since You came close. Springtime has finished and now summer
has come. My entire garden of those sweet, fragrant bakul flowers has
dried up and withered away in this hot season*. Now that same window–
where I used to sit and make garlands for You and wait– is full of
spider webs. Baba, it is so painful and heartbreaking how You have gone
so far away. And my mind is completely dry in the absence of Your divine
presence. O’ my dearmost, please shower Your causeless grace and appear
in my heart in a very intimate and charming way…

*Hot Season= In the absence of His presence, the sadhaka feels a
distinct dryness in his heart. Summer season– or hot season– has been
used as a metaphor to express that dryness in the devotees heart, where
one’s devotional feeling is lower. And this happens with each and every
sadhaka. Sometimes when one feels dry and out of the spiritual flow then
that is summer season; and when one’s flow of sadhana is good then that
can be compared with springtime because in their dhya’na they feel
greater proximity with Parama Purusa. But when one is experiencing the
dryness of summer, the best thing a devotee can do is to sincerely
request Baba to grace them by coming in their meditation.


These days in this vaeshyan era, everyone has to work – a lot.

When Prout is firmly established then a person might work as little as 5
minutes a week and devote the rest of their time to more subtle pursuits.

Baba says, “In a collective economic system the benevolent use of
science will bring about human welfare. It is possible that as a result
of mechanization no one will be required to work for more than five
minutes a week. Not always being preoccupied with the problems of
acquiring food, clothing, etc., people’s psychic and spiritual
potentialities will no longer be wasted. They will be able to devote
ample time to such activities as sports, literary pursuits and spiritual
practices.” (POD, pt#9)

We obviously have not yet reached the aforementioned stage.

Full-time work is an absolute necessity for most adults these days –
i.e. 40 – 50 hours per week. It is a huge part of one’s life.

It also has to be recognized that not all jobs are the same. There is
one type of job that is worse than all others. Some might think it is
based on pay rate, occupational hazards, travel time, or job security.
But that is not the case – at least not in this survey.

The worst job of all time is the one which goes against our essential
dharma of spirituality.


As sadhakas, we understand that the entire aim of spirituality is to
realise that “I am that Parama Brahma.” That is the goal.

Baba says, “Before crossing the bridge of devotion one feels like “You
are that”. But while crossing the bridge one feels “I am that”.” (SS-18)

Baba says, “Concentration of mind is only savikalpa sama’dhi, where the
only feeling that remains is “I am That.”” (AMIWL-1)

Baba says, “The unit consciousness that wants to return to Cosmic
Consciousness quickly has to become devoted to Cosmic Consciousness, and
this is bhakti. “I am That” is the idea to which the unit consciousness
has to be completely devoted in order to become That one day. Bhakti,
devotion, or calling Cosmic Consciousness, thus leads one to become like
That.” (AMEP)

Indeed in one form of another, every ista mantra in AM sadhana aims at
the ideal of unifying one’s unit existence with Parama Purusa, i.e.
becoming That.

So a sadhaka spends hours in meditation to train the mind that I am not
this tiny unit existence but rather “I am that Great Personality.” With
practice, devotion and love for the Supreme is generated until finally,
by Baba’s grace, the sadhaka becomes linked with that Divine Cosmic

This, we all know, is our sadhana practice and spiritual ideal, in a

So whether in seated meditation or not, we always aim to do our mantra
japa and think, “I am That, I am That, I am That…” This is how we are
to pass our days on this dusty earth. And no job should drastically
interfere with this ethic.


Now we come to the point. What is the worst job ever? A stock broker, a
street sweeper, a mechanic, a plastic surgeon – maybe, maybe, maybe.

According to our view, the worst job ever is that which interferes and
contradicts one’s ista mantra.

Any job where one has to state again and again, “Hello, I am John
Smith…” or “Greetings, this is Luis Rodriguez”, or “Hi, my name is
Paula Barcolli…”, is the worst job ever. Such jobs run directly
contrary to the meaning of one’s true identity. Because one has to
repeat such a crude phrase again and again, all day long: “Hello, I am
John Smith…”, “Hello, I am John Smith…”, “Hello, I am John Smith…”

This is really awful and impacts the mind in a negative way.

Indeed any job where one has to answer the phone or always introduce
oneself to new people or anything like that is the worst job – whether
one is on the radio, meeting clients or who knows what.

In other jobs, one may knowing or unknowingly believe that “I am
so-and-so”, but at least the person need not repeat it ad nauseum all
day long.

By repeating “I am John Smith…” orally again and again it further
substantiates the false idea in mind that I really am this tiny unit
being. The mind really believes it. When in fact we should be thinking,
repeating, and realising that I am that vast Great Entity.


There was time in my life where I had a desk job and whenever anyone
called, I am to pick up and say, “Hello, this is Charlie…”

At first I did not mind it, but over time the whole notion of having to
pick up the phone and repeat that phrase – “Hello, this is Charlie…”,
“Hello, this is Charlie…”, “Hello, this is Charlie…” – became
suffocating and repulsive to me.

I did not like it at all.

Once that feeling came in mind, then within 2 weeks I was gone from that
job, due to circumstances beyond my control.

So I thank Baba for saving the day and relieving me of that awful job

Since then, by His grace, I have not had to work under such conditions.
I have been very careful not to accept a job where I would have to
repeat my unit name all day long.


In this vaeshyan era, we have to make certain adjustments to survive.
But those adjustments must not contravene our subjective approach. We
should always have the mental freedom to ideate that Baba is the
everything and that I am moving towards Him.

Any job which transgresses this idea should be thought of as the worst
job. So if again and again – each and every minute – one has to repeat
and ideate on the false notion that “I am John Smith” – i.e. I am this
unit being – then that is not at all good.

Baba says, “In order to do japa, sufficient mental strength and mental
equilibrium or equipoise is required. In the midst of wordily squabbles
and intrigues, the repetition of one’s Is’t’a mantra is not all
possible.” (SS-12)

Whatever job we have, we should at least be able to internally recite
our mantra and not be hindered by again and again obtrusive repetition
that falsely claims, “I am John Smith”. This goes directly against our
spiritual approach.


By Baba’s grace, no matter what job or occupation we have, it must not
so graphically interfere with our knowledge and realisation of who we
are. We must always inculcate the idea that “I am That, “I am Parama
Purusa”, and then by His grace we will realise that within our little
I-feeling is the greater I-feeling of the Cosmic Entity. Those jobs
which so crudely contravene this tenet are the worst jobs of all time.

Baba says, ‘One who has acquired inner vision – the capacity to look
within, to experience or realize something by introverting the optical
nerve – by dint of sa’dhana’ is a blessed person indeed. What is that
“I”-feeling in each and every entity? What is the “I” of “I shall eat”,
“I shall speak”, or “I shall do”? It is that Supreme “I” which lies
hidden in the small “I”. So let people repeat the is’t’a mantra,
meditate and sing kiirtan for their Supreme “I” which remains hidden in
their small “I”…The actual truth is that the Supreme Entity lies
covert in the small “I” feeling of all living creatures. So He is not
far from anything; rather, He is the very “I” of each and every
microcosm. With this idea or feeling in mind, spiritual aspirants should
start their spiritual practice. To be ensconced in this supreme idea is
the culminating point of all sadhana.” (AV-4)


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