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Date: 03 Jun 2011 07:22:06 -0000

From: “Shivadayal Deva”

To: am-global@earthlink.net

Subject: Why Stuck in Sadhana







We all know that sadhana is the cream of life. Sadhana is the only way

to reach the Goal and feel His bliss. It is by sincerely practicing

sadhana that we progress on the path.


There are many factors that might temporarily halt our progress in

sadhana – procrastination, laziness, mundane attraction etc. These

certainly can happen.


However there is one fundamental flaw that will make our sadhana become

“stuck” – when we really cannot move ahead. And it is this pitfall that

every sadhaka and seeker must be aware of – and avert – if they want

success in their spiritual life.





Baba reminds us again and again that bhakti means service to Parama Purusa.


Bhaktir Bhagavato seva’

Bhakti is service to the Supreme


To serve anyone, to serve Parama Purusa, His presence is needed. One

must feel that Baba is nearby, closeby so that we may serve Him. Without

His presence there can be no service; and if there is no service there

is no bhakti. So this inherent feeling of closeness with Parama Purusa

is the key ingredient of bhakti. And with the feeling of bhakti then one

can easily move forward on the path of sadhana. Hence, it all starts

with the presence of Parama Purusa, thinking that Baba is close by. This

is an essential element of sadhana.





The main pitfall then or reason for getting stuck in sadhana is falling

into the dogma that Parama Purusa is not really there. Unfortunately

some feel this way – and in that condition their sadhana becomes totally



People innocently fall into the belief that sadhana is “just my

imagination”. They repeat their mantra, they do their chanting, they do

so many things – all with the feeling that they are alone and that

Parama Purusa cannot really hear them. This defective approach has

invaded the mental plate of many a sadhaka. And it is a most dangerous



How does it happen?


Well, people think, “I imagine so many conversations – with my spouse,

my boss, my grandmother, or my friend. And those persons do not actually

hear me. They do not know I was talking with them. It was all just my

imagination. Same then is the case with sadhana and Parama Purusa. I am

repeating my mantra but He cannot hear me. It is all just my imagination.”


This is one unfortunate misunderstanding that may enter the mind. And

this will bring one’s sadhana to a complete halt. Because without Parama

Purusa there is no sadhana. If we fall into the trap that Parama Purusa

is not close by but rather very far away then He will remain beyond our



Baba says, “If you think that He is very far from you, He will remain

forever beyond your reach.” (AMIWL-6)


In that case sadhana will just be one fantasy – just a far off dream.

There will not be any progress. There will not be any vibration or

feeling of closeness in sadhana.





To avert this spiritual calamity, one must feel like they are

communicating with Baba in sadhana. And to do this, one must cultivate

the idea that He is close by.


One may think that, this is easier said than done.


But, as we have all felt, really it is not very difficult. The whole

essence of our second lesson – or Guru mantra – is that Parama Purusa is

watching me. That is the beginning, middle, and end of second lesson. If

one feels this way then that is everything in second lesson.


Hence, all the 24hrs we should cultivate the feeling that Parama Purusa

is watching me.


And that is the reality also. It is not just one’s imagination. Because

Parama Purusa has deep, deep love and affection for everyone – i.e. for

you. In that case He cannot keep Himself away. Rather His tendency will

be to come close and watch for your welfare.


And when as sadhakas we embrace this reality, then we will have His

closeness and touch.


Baba says, “If you think that He is near, He will be so near that you

need not move even an inch to attain Him.” (AMIWL-6)


So the feeling embedded within 2nd second is vital toward our spiritual

growth in sadhana. And indeed when doing citta shuddi, this very same

feeling must be inculcated. Only when we feel we are completely

surrounded by His presence should we then commence our mantra japa.


In a nutshell, when we feel that He is with us, then our sadhana can

never become stuck.





Even then some think that, “Okay, Parama Purusa is watching me, I can

accept this idea, follow it, and tell others about it, but in my heart I

do not think it is true.”


Some fall in this category.


That is why for years and years, in countless reporting sessions and in

dharma samiiksa and in PC, Baba would again and again prove to us that

He was there all along, watching us. He would smile and perfectly repeat

what we were thinking when we were standing outside in the rain waiting

for the bus, or He would talk about how we ate a sweet before doing

sadhana, or He would describe who the passengers were on the train when

we were traveling to DMC.


All these things and many more Baba would tell us. And the sole reason

behind it was to teach and show us that in all circumstances He is

always with us. That was His message: Never are we alone, always Parama

Purusa is with you – watching – caring for your welfare.


Verily, this is the essence of spirituality: His presence.


And Baba has written hundreds of songs in His Prabhat Samgiita

collection that depict how we are to sing to Him and that He is always



All this reinforces the sweet notion that He is always with us.





So whether doing sadhana or not, we should always feel that He is with

us – watching us – looking out for our welfare. And this is one

beautiful idea.


It is not scary as if some enemy is secretly watching us through the



Rather it is one very charming and blissful concept that no matter where

I may go in this universe, Baba will always be with me, gently holding

my hand – guiding me, helping me – saving me.





This idea is the most important aspect of our spiritual life and it is

this notion that propels us ahead on the path.


So we must always feel that He is with us.


When doing second lesson we are to feel that He is watching us. And when

doing first lesson we are to feel like we are calling Him. That is

Baba’s explicit guideline.


Mindlessly repeating those mantras without that ideation – without the

feeling of His presence – will be futile.


It is the feeling that we are communicating with Him directly – that He

is there listening – that empowers our sadhana and gives shakti to our

mantra japa.


So we must always cultivate this as the first step in our spiritual

life: That He is present.


Never should we allow ourselves to fall prey to the myth that sadhana is

just our imagination. Doing so is like the kiss of death. Then our

sadhana will really be stuck. Even if we sit for hours and hours we will

not advance.


When we think – “Baba is with me” – then all the lessons of sadhana come

alive and we float in the bliss of of His sweet Presence.


Then we communicate with Him, and we will directly receive His

communication and love also. Sadhana will be a blissful interaction

between bhakta and Parama Purusa.





In our Marga, the whole concept and practice of sadhana is based on the

idea that we are very close with and in communication with Parama

Purusa. That is the golden nugget of Ananda Marga.


In the various religions they feel that their god is far away in the

seventh sky and that he is only available one day a week and even then

to communicate with him one needs the help of a priest etc. That is

their dogmatic outlook.


In AM it is not like that. Baba has infused withus with the idea that

‘Parama Purusa is yours and that He is your very close companion’. It is

this very real vibration that gives force to our mantra japa and propels

us toward Oneness with Him. By remembering and practicing this ideal, we

will never again get stuck in sadhana, by His grace.


Baba says, “He who is guiding the stars of the skies, is with you, you

are not alone. Under no circumstances should you ever be afraid. Never

think that you are alone. Whatever has to happen, will happen, and the

One who causes this happening is with you. He is not something which

resides far far away. You are not a distant relative of His. He is your

Father. So you only have to know the One. Who is He? He is your nearest

and dearest One. He is your most beloved.” (AV-5)








If we do sadhana just to show off in front of others or if we do sadhana

just so that we can go and eat food, then this is not at all good. In

that sadhana there is no Parama Purusa, there is only self and the

mundane desire for name and fame or food. If one falls in this category

then they are stuck. Their sadhana will not go anywhere. Only when one

thinks that my sadhana is for Parama Purusa will they then be able to

advance. Baba is ever-gracious so whatever right or wrong habits we may

have had in the past, He is always there to help us proceed on the path.

Let us all move forward embracing this idea.





“A’nandaghan tumi ananta karun’a a’nanda sudha’sa’ra…” (PS 4140)




O’ Baba, You are Ananda Ghan, You are full of bliss, You are Bliss

Personified. Your karuna’ [1], Your compassionate grace, knows no

bounds; it is unending. You are the essence of nectar– the essence of

infinite bliss. Baba, You are the most charming and attractive One. You

always remain in bliss. Your culmination lies in a’nanda; Your every

expression – thought, word, and deeds – is bliss. Baba, You are

uniquely situated in a’nanda and your entire Being is a’nanda. O’ my

Lord, You are bliss personified, You are A’nandamu’rti.


Baba, You are Alakha Nirainjan [2], infinite and blemishless. You

are so gracious; You are Bhra’ntivimocan [3], You remove all confusion,

doubts, and dilemmas. You have three eyes. You have perfect vision of

the past, present, and future. Baba, by Your grace, You are

sarva’ksa’dhaka, You are the answer of everything. You are fulfilling

everyone’s desires and wishes. You grant everything. You are everyone’s

own; You are in everyone’s heart. Baba You are the infinite ocean of

perfect peace.


Baba, in this world, You have come and expressed Yourself in the form

of effulgence and You will always remain in effulgence. Baba You are

eternally present in the three worlds– subtle, crude, and causal. You

are vibrating everything. From unit to cosmic, from the blade of grass

to Brahma, You are attracting everyone. All are moving towards You, by

Your grace. O’ Great Entity, You are mine and You are the essence of

essence. You are everything…





[1] Karuna’: (Literally: ‘Divine Compassion’); When Parama Purus’a sees the

suffering of devotees, then He feels pained by how they are unable to move

ahead on the spiritual path due to getting caught up in various problems

and difficulties. In such circumstances, Parama Purusa cannot bear to watch

His bhaktas go through so much struggle and strife. So in their helpless

condition, when devotees are trying hard to progress but their pathway is

completely obstructed and they cannot advance in their sadhana or spiritual

life– and again and again they are overcome by various complexes,

bondages, and obstacles– then by seeing His devotees beleaguered in this

way, Parama Purus’a Himself comes and graces them. With His immense

feeling of karuna’ (divine compassion), Parama Purusa blesses His

devotees and relieves them of their pain and suffering. This special

grace is nothing but His divine karuna’: Wherein Parama Purus’a graces

the devotees and removes their troubles and hindrances so that once

again they can move ahead freely on the path of spiritual salvation.


[2] Alakhanirainjan: (‘Alakh’ means ‘invisible’; ‘nir’ means ‘no’;

‘ainjan’ means ‘black spot’.) Of the infinite attributions of Parama

Purusa, one of which is that He is invisible and blemishless– totally

pure and perfect. That is why He is known as Alakhanirainjan. Because in

this world unit beings are bound by their past actions, by their

samskaras; and this creates a black mark in their mind. But being

Alakhanirainjan, being both invisible and blemishless, Parama Purusa is

totally beyond the realm of sense perception and beyond the realm of

samskara. His mind never gets stained. He remains eternally pure and



[3] Bhra’ntivimocan (Bhra’nti means ‘confusion’, vimocan means

‘remover’). This is one of the names of Parama Purusa: The Entity who

graciously removes all confusion and clears the sadhaka’s mind of

ignorance and delusion. When one is swamped in avidya maya and thinking

that right is wrong and wrong is right, then their future is bleak. They

are totally caught up in dogma and wallowing in misconceptions. They

think transitory things to be permanent. In that dreadful and desperate

time, when by His grace Parama Purusa removes the ignorance and clears

the sadhaka’s mind of all darkness, then the sadhaka is able to realise

the truth and move forward on the path of Supreme Benevolence. That is

why one of the names of Parama Purusa is Bhra’ntivimocan.

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